The Journal of an Emo Hater

im back motherfucker

2006-02-17T05:08:03Z

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
havent updated
i never update
fuck livejournal

but im dating emily again and i still love her never stopped
had some rough times but were back together
this is basicly the only reason im updating
because i fucking love her and fuck anyone who wants to get in the way
ill bitch smack all of you so line up and get ready all of those who do not want this to occur

anyway i have one more pack and im going to try to quit smoking
we have a show on saturday and crannell itll be fun you all should go

so emily i love you

life

2005-11-07T11:44:18Z

its been a looong fucking time since ive updated this bitch

currently life sucks to be plain honest
i dont know what i feel anymore i dont know if im depressed but i sure know that im not happy
i can fake it though and make sure i satisfy each and everyone of you with my wonderful fascade! so dont worry boys and girls!

lets see things that have happended....... me and emily are no longer together per say but were still friends which is cool

i crashed my car thursday and now im on muscle relaxents cuz it fucked up my back bad now my parents dont trust me with a fucking thing

music is nothing anymore i dont have any inspiration at all and i just play the same thing over and over and over

i started smoking ciggarettes again and im trying to quit its just not working

im stressed out of my mind about school if i dont have in all my work im gonna fail for the marking period but o well

the truck might be totaled from the accident and frankly i dont care it was a peice of shit anyway

i feel like ive grown distant from reality
im took a psych evaluation at the hospital because im having hallucinations
i showed several danger signs on it due to drugs and family problems and recent problems

i go into constant trances for either minutes or hours
i dont sleep during the night anymore

at this point i dont know what to do anymore

i dont know

2005-05-03T01:32:45Z

yet again i hardly update
hardly ever
i know people really dont care
but i think ill try updating more recently

but i guess my band is no longer going well because of constant problems between me james zack and joe so it probobaly will end

tfm is going good now though and im having alot of fun without drama so i might just stay with that

meanwhile me and emily seem to be doing great so im happy although she is leaving for her senior trip

and i went to the scared straight program today which fuckin annoyed the shit out of me

but anyways later

i dont update my journal yaaay

2005-03-04T02:42:05Z

ummm i dont really update that much at all so i guess i shall for shits and giggles

my band is going well "the pancake brigade" it is
James Fiore-BASS GUITAR
Joe Breslin-DRUMS
Zack Rettoun-Rhythm guitar and Vocals
and myself Kent MacDonald-Lead Guitar and Vocals

we write tons of offensive songs and have alot of fun but i try to stay away from being to serious in songs because i hate
political bullshit songs
whiny bitchy songs
songs about things i dont understand
songs where the lyrics go nowhere
songs where all it is is rap because rap takes as much talent as it is to put the square in the square hole and the circle in the cirlce hole

any way zack and james want to start getting serious and i honestly dont want to be serious at all i just want to have fun and play obnoxious music

well this is me and emilys 6 month she turned 16 on the 16th thats weird shit

im going over to her house on saturday and i dont know what else to write

bad day

2005-01-18T04:36:27Z

well im depressed/pissed/happy?!?!?! i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me today was shit practice sucked we might not have a singer i dont even know how to fucking write my thoughts right now so much shit is wrong. ok ill list the problems (this isnt just to bitch its just to really vent my thoughts and i dont really care if people read it)

Band practice today- hardly did anything fun on the drums because apparently i play to many fills and such so why play any at all if all i need to do is keep a fucking beat and ya know what if thats all you think a drummer does GO FUCK YOURSELF but anyway i got into an arguement with my dad during practice because of that and he also decides to say my band has no groove because we dont play simple song structures (wow hey dont harder song structures require harder drum parts hey thats just me but im pretty sure they do)

After band practice- getting ready to go to emilys i told my dad last night to fucking meet me at the sunoco at 9 and then i remind him and he bitches about the time cuz its a school night?? fuck school nights i get up and do what i have to do in school wether or not i have enough fucking sleep. Well he yells at me i leave and go to emilys house and then call my mom and tell her to pick me up laura comes and we head out to get Joe

ride to joes house- ok it was all good until leaving roscoe lauras car then decided to turn on the engine light so shes worried as were going it starts to snow really badly so were going slower and then all of a sudden the car spun and we almost hit a farm (thank god we didnt) we get joe and drive back slowly very slowly in fact

At emilys- watched anchor man hung out with the 3 of them and had fun this was the good fucking part of the day go to sunoco moms there kiss emily goodbye leave go home

Get home-ok everything goes to hell again paretns yell at me about james breaking the door in warehouse (when i have band practice so much shit is broken because my friends think its fucking funny... but i sure fucking dont)
go upstairs turns out laura and joe dont want to be with each other get screamed at by the both of them both become very very upset then i call emily, emily then becomes very upset and my dad yells at me and i have to get off the phone i get freaked out i go offline for a bit go outside and fill up the stove so its warm in the band room (pellet stove its kind of like a wood stove) well i go back online and talk to emily and work some shit out which is good

ok other random reasons why im upset

im either pissed at some friends or friends are pissed at me

Zack (both ways) he called me at my gfs wich i hate so much when people do and talked to me about retarted guitar effects and bullshit like that and hes like complaining because i wasnt going to practice with him the next day wich i told him i wouldnt do a week before because i had plans to stay over at my gfs house and not come home that day but instead i couldnt so i scheduled a different band practice with the foxxy morons because that band hasnt practiced together in 3 weeks and we have a concert on sat and he bitched and bitched and i just hung up so honestly he can go fuck himself right now im pissed

James (pissed at him) he fucking is skipping practice to hang out with his gf that i fucking hate so much its not even funny shes the most annoying fucking retartd on the planet and there relationship is so stupid and all they do is fight

Dave (pissed at me) because we havent practiced and i set up a concert for us (the other band that needed practice)

other reasons good/ bad

bad- snare drum fucking broke cheap ass tama rockstar metal i wish i could get a fucking nice drum set it would be fucking GREAT but now im stuck with this set but i shouldnt complain it sounds nice and looks great and only gave me this problem, stressed about upcoming concert and shit like that i need to find a singer for tfm and get taht person to learn the lyrics this week

Good-ummm i set up my drums good?? emilys not upset with me, and i have band practice tommorow so maybe i wont be so pissed off wait... i forgot i have it with zack and my fucking snare sounds like a bongo YAAAY

la la la fuck you all i hate fried rice!!!

2005-01-12T02:00:18Z

This journal entry has nothing at all to do with fried rice so dont get your fucking hopes up. Wellllllllllllllll i have a concert at the youth center on January 22nd in callicoon so you should go if you can all 3 of my bands will be there. Two of my bands are combining Starvation Tripp (zack)well thats one person... and THE PANCAKE BRIGADE!!! wich is a fucking great thing because i can no longer physically be in 3 bands its killing my spine. BUT ANYWAY i really hate school and its pissing me off and exhausting/tiring me its making me want to start smoking again kinda... shit emily is gonna see this.... ummm ehhh.... . Im on level 1 wich is retarted because my doctor hasnt faxed a note saying i was sick to the school yet wich blows and once he does ill be on level 2 but i doubt there will be school tommorow. Im also quite freaked out about this show because we have like...5 songs... maybe 6.... but w.e WERE THE FRIGGIN PANCAKE BRIGADE BITCHES!!. Umm i cant think of anything else to write besides that im on the phone with emily right now and i hope shes not pissed off at me.... doubt she is... but if she is... its not good. so ummmm...... SHES DRUNK!!!!!!! (AA from the pancake brigade)

long time no update

2005-01-03T04:25:40Z

ok if you dont already know me im really fucking lazy and it takes me awhile to get things done like a journal entry so i guess i havent updated for about 20 or so days soo umm i guess alot of shit happended but i really dont know what christmas and new years was cool although i didnt see much of emily.... wich sucks..... but i got a few hours of bp in with The Foxxy Morons and The Pancake Brigade and wrote a couple of songs for the pancake brigade which is cool there pretty heavy ones called i dont care and the other is dont talk nar nar and there funny as shit but im not gonna write them in here cuz im lazy and right now i have no more toms on my set because everyone fucking tells me that i over play on the drums so im just going to play ac dc bullshit stuff because thats probly all they want to hear me playing and if not fuck em ill play what i want but this is just a protest to piss them off and umm tommorow is the first day of school and im on level 3 wich is cool but i dont really like school at all its really fucking boring and i occasionly want to hurt people and i wanna see emily saturday which would be awesome.... and i have no idea what to write now ummm yea

blah and more blah

2004-12-12T05:41:38Z

umm well today was ummm... good/bad like a good word would be goad or baod or something to that extent ummm well i woke up around 11 and jus kinda sat around played guitar until 12 then decided to leave my room and face the day got ready and went to steves music picked up my christmas presents wich was a good thing i am quite happy with them then i went home and got ready to go to the mall with emily well we get to the mall and everything is ok until about 10-20 mins after we eat lunch then she starts acting angry/sad/frantic or something not sure she doesnt tell me whats wrong.... so i have no idea how to deal with the situation so i tryed to give her space.... im not sure if that was the best idea either..... we get out of the mall and in the car im not sure how she was then because the music was so loud i couldnt hear anything she was saying and she was in the front and i was in the back so i couldnt see any of the expressions on her face but when we got to the sunoco to drop me off it was apparent to me that she was upset... she just waves and goes... kinda weird... not sure if shes mad at me or something or just moody or upset in general so on the drive home i get into another one of those "all you care about is yourself" fights with my dad who thinks that i only care for my self... yea ok... not sure what the fuck his problem was if i had a fucking car id drive places but i dont maybe he should realize that.... then i get home bring in all my shit and start playing guitar with the new pedal seeing how it sounds (sounds awesome) but i go online to talk to emily she leaves abdruptly or something like that (very quickly) doesnt say i love you or anything just goodnight and leaves so now i have no idea what is going on im very upset about it and i have no fucking clue what to do now being as shes sleeping and waking her up would make everything 10 times worse so im just gonna sit here and think of ways to make it better or why she could be upset i know a couple but not sure wich so i guess im just going to sit here and think

R.I.P "Dimebag" Darrell Abbot

2004-12-10T03:32:04Z

well today is the worst day of my life that i didnt think would come... my hero dimebag darrell died today he was murdered brutally on stage after damageplans first song by Nathan Gale in cold blood he was shot 6 times point blank. Dimebag was the metal guitar god and he will always be that it feels almost like i lost a brother so...

R.I.P "Dimebag" Darrell Abbot
You Will NEVER be forgotten
(The Metal Guitar God)

heh i cant believe i got a stupid fucking journal

2004-12-07T04:34:17Z

WELL BITCHES i got a journal.... dunno why... maybe cuz i fucking can.... yea

today was not at all a good day.... i mean i didnt know shawn to well like i know alot of people did but shawn was a great guy ill say that for the record and ill say i hope hes doing great wherever he is now so R.I.P shawn